BPD and F***ing Mood Swing Sunday

I hate the mood swings. One moment I can be feeling totally fine, happy even, like it’s going to be a perfect day – and then something happens. Nothing big, nothing meaningful even, just something minor that I see or hear or even just think about and my mood crashes. Sometimes I don’t even know what brings the mood swing about.

Today was a good day, until I went from being happy and content and looking forward to the rest of the day to feeling empty and like I can’t stand being within myself anymore. I try to do things to keep my mind off the feeling, but it’s impossible. I’m irritable and literally everything annoys me to no end. I can’t even be bothered to write more about it now because I feel myself going ever more angry inside.

I wish I knew how to make it go away!

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4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. aimeecatherine
    Oct 28, 2012 @ 14:59:04

    i am having a similar day. i got up feeling positive but a few hours later i am anything but. i wish i knew what to say that may help but all i can think of is saying i am totally understanding your post. is so easy to say hang in there when that is what i feel like i do on a daily basis but that is all that can be done at times. x

    • Lola
      Oct 28, 2012 @ 15:39:41

      I’m sorry you’re having a similar day. 😦 Yes, saying hang in there is easy, but hard to do. I’m trying to – not much of a choice anyway. Hoping for something to brighten my mood. Finally talking some with mom, which helps a little. Hoping your day will improve. x

  2. BorderlinePrincess
    Oct 28, 2012 @ 18:45:34

    I hate mood swings too. Sometimes it comes without warning or trigger. That’s why I cannot socialise or be around others for long. I don’t actually mind it too much when I am at home, alone and my child is in school. I can be the miserable cow and no one can say anything. But its halfterm holidays, a week off school. Which I love as we spend quality time together but I have to hide it from him, which can be hard. For some reason, aroound my child, I am relaxed and ok apart from the pain I suffer in my back, joints and every where else. Hope you are feeling better.x

    • Lola
      Oct 29, 2012 @ 19:43:05

      Thank you, BorderlinePrincess. 🙂 I can imagine having to hide it from your son can be difficult. I don’t like to socialize with people either, there are just so many hazards for so many crap things to happen. I’m glad you are better with the mood swings when you’re at home. Thankfully I’m feeling better today, and I’m very glad when I can just be at home, too.

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