Still working on my header – or: why can’t I ever be happy with anything?!

I’m having serious trouble with being content with what I do. I think I’m happy with something, but then it starts bugging me. I thought my new header was kind of “me”. Today I didn’t feel like it was “enough me” at all anymore. I kept working on it, changing it, improving it. Now it feels more me (or more like me today anyways) but uploaded it looks grainy and makes my eyes itch. Shit. So I’m still not content, even though I kept working until it irritated me so much I became angry and full of destructive energy.

Why do I always need “perfect” and can’t be happy with “okay”?!

Need a break now. Will work more on it tomorrow. Sorry if the header gives anyone itchy eyes in the meantime. :/


UPDATE: Good, now at least the eye-itching fuzziness is gone. And surprisingly enough I’m more okay with the header today than I was yesterday.

I have a new header

Having been bored for most of the day, I decided to toy some with putting together a header, to pass time. I don’t know how well I did, it looks a bit cluttered and like narcissim central up there, but hey, my blog is about me, so I figured I might as well put drawings of me up. Also my brain is about as cluttered as the header, so I don’t know, I might leave it there for a while until I come up with something better.

Drop me a line to let me know what you think of it! 🙂

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